Today was kinda special...

Sat with MengChing during service... Woo I know I'm gonna miss her in a few more weeks... Hmmm... So after service, I got the news that I was involved in a video shoot... Hope that I didn't look stupid... LOL... It was real impromptu...


That's MengChing! She's a gem. =)

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Met my tuition kids after everything.. And we spent 4 hours at JP... We went to the arcade and all the toy stores... You know what I felt like? A mum. LOL.. They ran around and stuff and of cos I wouldn't wanna chase them like a mother hen.. LOL... Something quite cute+embarrassing happened at the arcade.. LOL... Vivian la!!! We were at the basketball area and she SHOUTED "Teacher!!! Got 2 free basketballs!!!" There was quite a large crowd watching her as she tried to shoot those balls in with all her might.. LOL.. The second ball actually went in and I heard a "Wah kao..." from a guy standing behind.. LOL... After it went in she was so happy and came running to my side... At that point my face was flushing already but thankfully it was quite dark there LOL.. Kids are so oblivious to their surrounding!!!

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Gonna meet them tmr for tuition again... Phew~ I don't know why, but I feel a need to be committed in their lives, not just for the money (btw I'm underpaid), but hmmm really getting into their lives... And hopefully be the someone they can confide in... Hmmm... Glad that their parents trust me enough to bring them out today... But no doubt, it was tiring but rather fun haha..
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Have been spending a lot on music recently... Close to 500 just this month alone... It's quite outrageous... "Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." Little things add up to much... But it's fine... I don't feel like I've wasted a single cent... *sings* "All for love's sake, became pooooor..." (Of cos that's a downright misinterpretation hahaha)

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Finally conquered a sonatina tonight... Felt/feel quite ecstatic!! =) I think that's the joy of playing music - To transform printed black notes into colourful melodies that linger in the air... Ok ok that's a bit exaggerated but the idea is there LOL... Then again, sometimes I am capable of producing noise that pollutes the air... HAHAHA...

What's with taxi drivers nowadays...? Yaya we want more drivers around... But if the quality is compromised... Hmmm........

Got quite pissed off today by taxi driversss...
1) A driver told a group of us to get out of the cab after he had driven a distance as the place that we wanted to go wasn't convenient for him as he was changing shift... So he dropped us at a bus stop where it was so hard to get a cab.. *@#! Irritating bug.

2) After 10 agonising mins we got another cab... And this guy didn't know where Mount Sinai Drive is..... !#&!%(* He said he would TRY... So fine, we were running late anyway... But what happened was... He wanted me to flip the road directory FOR HIM... My piss level was at around 8/10 already... But for the sake of reaching there, I flipped while he called his friend.. Ok so good, he finally sounded like he knew how to get there...

However, at one point, my gut feeling told me he was going the wrong way... And so I questioned him... True enough, he told me he turned the wrong direction... ..... My piss level rose to 9/10.. He told us that he would give us a discount.. But that's not that point... He should just confess first before I had to ask right... Then maybe my piss level will only be at 8.5... In the end he took us for an unneeded tour around Buona Vista...

Imagine if you are to attend an important function and turn up late... Giving the stupid excuse that the taxi driver loses his way... Though it may be true, but it is damn unconvincing isn't it...

3) I took another cab to NAFA for cello lesson... I held my breath when the driver doesn't know where NAFA is... I mean it really isn't obscure at all and I thought it is quite a well-known school in Sg... But at least he knew where Bencoolen road is.... Phew....... Nightmare in bright daylight..

Taxi drivers really should do their homework... It's not as if Sg is that big... And it's not the responsibility of the customers to tell them how to get to where isnt it... At least for the more prominant places... Furthermore, most of the time we need a cab becos we need to get to places FAST... So hmmm...

Erm... Sorry if I complained too much hahaha, I don't normally do that but today I had some totally unbelievable encounterS with taxi drivers all at once... So.. haha.. Plus, I asked 3 persons for the number to call a cab and I received 3 different numbers... AAAAAHHHHH..... Don't know to laugh or to cry hahahaha...

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Hmmm.... Some things are damn complicated... Too much for my puny brain... JunYang said "No guts no glory"... But as a song goes "Wise men say only fools rush in"... So sometimes, having guts can lead to gory endings. No guts no gory. YES. Hmmm... Maybe ignorance is bliss...

What do you think?

I find myself getting real fussy over the use of words recently... In a newspaper article some time ago, it was written that a guy had "poor short-term memory"... I went "What?? So you mean he has good memory?" .......... Another one in a book, it was written "newly edited edition".. I went.. *-_-* Can't they just put "new edition"... Seems like I have nothing better to be irritated over... Hahaha.. But things like that can quite stir me up.. A little..

Had piano lesson yesterday... I think the teacher is kinda cute... Lol... She looks like an ant... LOL... I mean the cute type... LOL.. But I'm quite afraid to make mistakes during lesson cos she will normally play the melody line along with me using an octave higher... So if I pause or play the wrong note, she can't go on and she will give 'that' face... Lol... So most of the time I have to be on my guard... But it's fine... She commented that I could handle the songs well... But she also pointed out my bad habit while playing and noticed that my fingers were a little weak... Which I went "Yayaya!!!" So it's really good to have those bad points coming to light so I can improve on them...

My fingers are really giving me quite a bit of problem.. It's even worse on the cello!!! How... hmmm...

Met JunYang (again!) after my lesson and we went to Vivo (again!)... Lol... I'm always meeting him after 9pm.. Lol... It's quite hard to dig out time nowadays... It was quite nice yesterday cos he kept coming up with thought-provoking issues... But after a long day, it's quite hard to give intelligent ideas hahahaha... Spare meee....

Today's tuition was really quite fun!!! LOL...

Vivian's house had an exciting atmosphere... I didn't know why... I kept asking her "Why is everyone so happy today??" Lol... We did something light since they have seen me for third time this week already... At first I got kinda freaked out as another girl (Kelly) went silent for the first half an hour...

"Are you sad?"
*shook head*
"Someone bullied you?"
*shook head*

Silent treatment!!! Halfway through while they were doing their stuff, Joe called and asked me about a song and so I had to leave and sing for him lol.. When I came back, Vivian told me Kelly actually forgot to bring her English book, that was why she was moody and stuff... It was very *chey..~* !!! Kids can be quite cute, troubling over such trivial matters. Hahaha...

And Vivian... She always sabotages me!!! Today was the ultimate!!! She suddenly screamed "Aileeeeeen! Melvin kor kor (her house's tenant) dui ni yi jian zhong qing!!!" I swear her neighbours could hear... I was damn embarrassed cos everyone was home... I told them I wanna quit!!!! Lol....

One more thing happened, towards the end of the lesson, Kelly suddenly brought out her test paper... She left it faced down on the table... In my mind I went "Oh noooo.... Did she fail or something..." But when I flipped open, I had a vv pleasant surprise! She did well and got 2nd in class!! I was so so happy... Lol... So I promised to bring them out this Sunday... LOL... And they were excited and stuff.. But really, I don't know what to do with them Hahaha!... Thought they would like Ratatouille!!! But I've watched it.. Hmmmmm.... Actually I don't have to worry, kids have a thousand crazy ideas... Hahaha...

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Anyway, I think my dad is quite cool... He still mused over a waitress' blab at the restuarant last Sunday... He called her a "Screwhead"... SCREWHEAD!!! I didn't know to laugh or what when he used that word yesterday... LOL... So if any funny words come out of me, you know who I learnt it from hehehehe...

"Effort only fully releases its reward after a person refuses to quit."
Napoleon Hill
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Napoleon_Hill (read for fun)

This week seems like a tuition marathon!!! Gotta go thrice as I have to do make-up lessons since I was down last week and their exams are nearing... But it's fine, the girls have been good so far... And I'm so proud of one of them!!! She topped her class in English last week! It came as a pleasant surprise... =) Must be those hangmans we played LOL.. She is always absent from schools due to her frequent medical checkups and stuff, to the extent that she once misread "National University of Singapore" as "National University Hospital"... =( I felt quite sad then...

She's always so passionately telling me about Pokemon stuff... And giving me Pokemon stickers... LOL... I don't know what to do with them... LOL.. She gave me a Teachers' Day card yesterday, it was quite cute... In it was written, "Dear Aileen, thank you for teaching me English, Maths and Science for tuition, although I don't like maths, but thanks. Yours sincerely, Vivian Yu =)" LOL.. Yes she really doesn't like maths. Especially %. LOL... Sometimes the little devil in her manifests - she will sulk and whine and throw tantrum and stuff... It's real frustrating... But I hope it's worth my tolerance at the end of the day/year...

Hmm... I realised one thing today. The marketplace is where reality is starkly evinced... The people can't get any more real - Women like rich men and men like pretty women. It's quite scary how they aren't a little bit discrete about it... Hmm... It's quite distressing.

"He who has a why to live can bear almost any how."
- Friedrich Nietzsche, German philosopher

Read for fun -> http://www.icla.org/leukemia/leukem/leukemi.htm

Hehehe another great day.

We had a guest speaker today and he is Nick Vujicic. You can check him out at his website: http://www.lifewithoutlimbs.org/ He said this "God is so perfect that He will not make a mistake." God intentionally created us the way we are together with all our weaknesses and strengths.. If you believe that. He set me thinking about what I'm doing with this one life that I have... Hmm... Have I even tapped on the potential inside of me? Hmm...

Met dear Bird in the late afternoon at Orchard for a drink and a chat... Actually, I love her a lot!! But I'm quite shy to tell her.. So I'm publicly announcing here. Lol.. I'm full of contradiction. Had a heart-to-heart chat with her... Have you ever made a DIY 'telephone'? The one with a string connecting 2 cups... I think we both felt that way... Somehow our hearts are connected in some way.. Hmm...

After that I met my dad for dinner and shopping at Vivo (Again!!!) He wanted to eat at his favourite restaurant - The Imperial Herbal Restaurant. It used to be located at Beach Road but is under renovation now..

Looking intellectual as he read the menu.. Lol..

Braised Turtle! And no we didn't order that.. haha.. They have some other weird stuff...

The bill added up to a whopping $184.80.. For 2 persons! LOL.. The food was really great so we (Erm.. him...) didn't feel shortchanged... The service was excessively fine, I felt like I was being watched throughout...... Lol... Nvm, I was eating with my dad... Not bf or sth.. hahaha..

After dinner, we went shopping around... And as always, I ended up with nothing... But he bought 2 tops. Guys....

Me: You anyhow buy one!

Him: No not anyhow, I was decisive...

Erm... I am also a decisive person actually, I decided what I didn't want to buy. LOL...

And yes! It feel sooo good to be healthy again!!!!!!! Suddenly there is life! No more rhinitis, tonsilitis, influenza and fever! Lol.... Super act chim.. Go ahead and say "Whateverrr.." again. Lol..

*Is Jesus enough for you?*

What a fun day hehehe.

Had combined cg at Riverwalk and then our cg walked down to Suntec for the food fair and joined the rest of the hungry people LOL.. It was really quite fun hanging out with my cg... =) Then I gotta rush for cello lesson... So today, I had to carry the cello everywhere... And again a lot of people mistook it for a guitar Aiyo. Someone volunteered to carry it for me cos he thought it looked cool and wanted to attract some attention from girls......... LOL.. Ok........... lol...

And yu hu! I finally caught the rat show! With junyang the birthday boy... We watched it at JP and met a lot of other JJcians... zzz. JP is where JJcians hang out... Even on a weekend... It can't get any more boring... Haha.. Anyway, I thought the plot was really good! But it was a totally predictable show and the rats are rather gross at times wahaha... Oh I shan't say too much here. Haha.. And as predicted, there was a great bunch of kids la. I told him "Aren't the kids supposed to be asleep now?" Lol. Goodness, they laughed at every little thing at the beginning... But the theatre grew quieter near the end and I suspected they must had fallen asleep. lol...

And hmmm, recently there are a few people who lied to me... And till now they are still in oblivion that I actually knew they lied. Most of the time I know when people lie, but I choose to stay nonchalant. At the end of the day, I don't gain/lose anything anyway, it's themselves that they are causing harm to. I'm more of the observer so I'm quite sensitive to people's body language and stuff.. Muahaha... But I just keep it silent in my heart... I remember once I exposed someone's lie to her, and she was quite taken aback. But inside me shouted "Bingo!!" LOL.. So it's quite fun lol..

We should really just face the music if we have to... I mean music... It can't be that awful right... Hahaha... It's an interesting idiom gotta check out the origin.. Haha.. http://www.idiomsite.com/facethemusic.htm
http://www.phrases.org.uk/meanings/131650.html

Finally went to work today! Been quite sick recently and so I stayed home most of the time.. Haven't seen my friends since last Saturday! Hahaha.. Boss went to play golf today so I left early since there's nothing much to do.. LOL.. Someone commented that I'm a cheapskate. LOL.. Hmph.

Went to Vivo only to realise that I haven't missed out much... I was so near Sentosa!!! Really wished I could be at the beach playing vball. Those were the days eons ago. Anyway, I'm anticipating the night rollerblading with YeeKiat!!!! Gotta make sure it come to past Lol... It'll be so very cool. And gotta get a new pair of blades soon! I want a Salomon one! Hahaha.. Mine's breaking into pieces already...

Anyway, today! I had my first piano lesson after around 3 years. I really missed it... It was fine, the teacher commented that my sight-reading was good and so I can learn more repertoire other than boring exam pieces. So was kinda encouraged... But she tends to get a little impatient sometimes and I will start to kanchiong!! But I guess it's the good type of kanchiong-ness cos then I will put in more effort haha.. I'm pretty cool with her mild impatience as I will psycho myself to think that she thinks quite highly of me that's why she's not happy when I make mistakes! Hahahah.. Go ahead and say a loud "Whatever!!!" LOL..

But I think she's really good, I feel quite stretched haha.. She kept telling me not to look at the keyboard and to learn to FEEL it... Ok so I'll work on that... And she taught me how to use the sustainer the right way.. Finally I know!! It was quite a relief... Gotta work on that too.. But one thing, she kept having doubts on whether I can chiong my Grade 5 theory by March next yr... and I kept having to convince her so it was quite irritating!!!

Thou shall not complain!!! lol..

Argh. I'm convicted now... I can't live with someone who can't appreciate music... It's the nearest thing to hell on earth... Downright frustrating when you can't play music when you want to... It's as good as being in a prison... It's a mental torture altogether.

And it's not that I play it THAT badly...
I wish people can just leave me alone...

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-For those who missed Bio.

The past 2 days have been Terrorble... Missed Sunday service and SOT graduation ceremony! Didn't work today too... Not feeling well.. So I spent last night learning the first page of my blog's song and have been addicted to it ever since... The rest are more challenging.. waha.. But Yang can play it!!!

Anyway, went to watch a concert with Steph last Saturday at the Esplanade... It was by the SSO and there was a piano concerto by this really really cute guy. He was really awesome. It always amazes me how pianists can remember the entire score!!!

Sergio Tiempo... Oh my gosh.

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Ok chill... Maybe I'm just biased towards musicians LOL..

Boss' back today! I was quite apprenhensive last night just thinking of his return.. Haha so stupid. It turned out better than what I expected, he even bought me something from Prague! LOL.. So see, most of the time, our worries don't come to past.

Met Yang at the Esplanade to play the piano! He was/is such an awesome player..... But I didn't have the 'mood' to play today... =( It was quite horrible. Wanted to record a song so as to change my blog's song.. But in vain! The presence of a recorder was/is quite daunting. =( And it's quite hard to play a piece without error.. =( Anyway, I am anticipating my long-awaited piano lesson next friday! A lot of fixing up to be done... Haha.. Yay good good.

*Yang at work* Very impressed! Ok ok! I'm on my (long) way!! hehehehe...

Oh by the way, I really love MeePok. How? LOL... I ate that for lunch and dinner today.. LOL.. Simply irresistable. So if anyone wanna date me out, I'll be satisfied with just a bowl of MeePok LOL.. Maybe I need to be more sophiscated? Eh.. But who cares. Hahahaha.

snob (snŏb) Pronunciation Key n.
1) One who tends to patronize, rebuff, or ignore people regarded as social inferiors and imitate, admire, or seek association with people regarded as social superiors.
2) One who affects an offensive air of self-satisfied superiority in matters of taste or intellect.

-www.dictionary.com

Within a week, 2 persons have complained to me about snobbish people in their schools...

Snobs should really stay at home and sleep... We should understand that God has given every single one of us talents. A talent is a gift and we can't choose it. Some are good in writing... Some in drawing... accounting.. sports.. music.. IT... In any case, we all have talents... Just different ones. And A can't say to B that A is better, like a basketball is not any better than a table tennis ball... You just can't compare like that... It makes no sense. A basketball has its own role to play and similarly for a table tennis ball...

Well, and if both have the same talent, the one who has 'gone further' should just look ahead towards his goal and not turn around to mock at the other, lest he trips and falls. Eww, snobs can really get on my nerves...

We gotta understand that a talent is given by God and we must use it to glorify Him. Period.

Had a conversation with Jeff last week and he was sharing about his Batam mission trip with the SOT... I admire him a lot. Well, shall keep the conv private, all I can say is that he gave his all for the people. He was very focused on his purpose there and did a lot for the entire team... Even when nobody knew and some were even unappreciative... But at the end of the day, God knew.

And that was all that matter, wasn't it?

Yuu huu!

Just came back from orch. prac! Haha! We had a special guest today! Fresh from UK! He plays the cello and is a church bassist and was here to impart some knowledge to the cellists ... So before everyone came, I was alone fiddling with my cello and suddenly Eric and him walked in...

*Stunned*

Eric: Hi this is Jonty.

Me: *looked at him* Hi... *Stunned + smittened*

(Silence)

Then both of them talked while standing in front of me... I was just sitting there too speechless to say anything. And would rather not... I think Eric saw my expression! He was grinning away...

And to make myself useful, he wanted me to call 2 other cellists. YES Sir. I needed them to come so desperately hahaha... So next he brought Jonty up to the roof garden for a look and most probably to kill time too. Phew. But they came back too soon and the cellists were not here yet!!!! And the worst thing was, Eric had to go take something and so I was stuck with him!

He was really good looking and everything nice... I mean at least for the first impression... So what do you do with someone like that?

1) Remain cool-headed (or try to). Don't smile excessively. HAHAHA...
2) Ask him questions and make him talk. This is to prevent any 'spontaneous' things coming out of you.. LOL..

Haha no la... Kidding. Lol.

3 of us, HIM, Eric and TatHaur

Anyway prac was really fun today.. Eric was so funny and so it was quite light-hearted. Had a chat with a fellow cellist after prac while indulging in an ice cream.. More of me to love now! LOL...

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Celebrated Jason's bday with jc classmates! 2 sundays ago.. Haha..

Chocolate fondue for cg refreshment! 2 saturdays ago..

Haha it was quite fun..

Hmm... Why do people like to put things on my piano lid? Is it that tempting... I hate it.
Enough's been said and done... Maybe I should put a big note which says "Do not touch my piano"? Can't be bothered to even be polite and put a 'Please'... Argh........

I mean, even for myself, I'd make sure my hands are really clean before I play, if not I will wash it first.. and I will try to minimise contact with the lid when I open and close it, this is to prevent having nasty fingerprint stains... So imagine someone else come mess up my piano by putting stuff on it.. (from HP to cups to keys to books to plates to hands.....) No doubt I'll be boiling inside. When it comes to my piano, I'm VERY particular. Like it or not. =)

All of us have our own rules right?

Haha and today.. I was so mad laaa... I don't know why people are so fascinated by Jurong Point.. It's always so crowded... And it's really tough carrying my heavy cello around when people are walking so slowly and stopping irregularly.. So my cello head is always hitting the back of people's legs.. What happened was, I always try to dodge around and stuff... Today I was so frustrated by the 'indecisive crowd' (they didn't seem to know where to go?!) so I decided to carry my cello upright infront of me to get out of the crowd asap. And the next second, a girl banged right into my cello!!! I don't know how much bigger must my cello gets to be seen... I was really frustratedddd...

After the entire ordeal, I felt a tap on my shoulder. It was Cai's cousin! (Phew, thank God I didn't frown at him) He told me he witnessed everything I went through hahaha.. Horrible. But at the end of the day I'm still happy cos I'm doing what I love.

I think love is not blind but short-sighted, it only sees the bigger picture...
(Nice quote! Copyright k hahahaha)

A Happy Day

1) Work

I was really happy at work today hahahaha.. I don't know why. =) Perhaps it's my colleagues, I like them! Or perhaps because I have nothing much to do... =) But I was very very happy hahahhaha... Smiled at everyone and stuff... Lunched with 2 others and they talked about investments.. funds.. stocks.. and things like that... They made no sense to me though.

2) Holiday

YES!!! Perhaps it's this one. My boss is flying over to Prague, Europe tmr!!!!!!!!! So I can have self-declared holiday too... And it's not 1 day... nor 2 days.. nor 3 days.. But a good 8 days! Hahaha..

3) Prac

We did something different today! Had sectionals and then we played in quartet style but with more people... It was really quite fun but just a little exhausted after exuding so much happiness hahahaha... Got to hear another sweet love story from a fellow cellist... Which made us go 'aww...' hahaha... Recently people around me have been telling me about their bf and stuff and I have nothing much to contribute hahaha... So I just listened lor. LOL..

4) Piano

Received a surprise call from Linda during prac!!! She called to tell me that her teacher has an available slot and so I can have lessons soon!!! Finally.... Phew~ So that's another happy thing. Nothing's gonna stop me now!!! But that also means that my schedule will be super tight. Most of my days will end around 10pm, except perhaps Tuesdays and Sundays. But it's fine I guess cos I love everything that I'm doing. =)

Oh talking about Linda... (I know you read my blog!) She's my jc classmate and is flying over to Germany real soon to study for a good 6 years. I think that is really courageous of her, I don't know if I can... The thought of leaving behind my piano and friends and family.... Is too overwhelming. To make things worse, her dad bought her a one-way ticket!!! She's really strong I think. Hope I can save enough money to visit her some day...

On a personal note, Linda you have impacted me in a way or two with your gentleness and your ability to remain calm in any given situations. That's something which I really admire you about. It shows that inside you lives a fearless giant.. And hmm, I'll save the rest of the emo stuff for 4th of Sept. =(

Today I learnt a lesson.

On my way home with Bird and Alice, I made fun of a stranger! Not exactly the person but the thing she was carrying... (Now, don't look innocent...) And while laughing, a sharp guilt overwhelmed me. I had a revelation and God said harshly, erm reprimanded to be exact.. "What if that was your mum?"

At that point, I felt really solemn... And felt like slapping myself... Boo.

But I thanked God for teaching me how to live. I make mistakes, that's why I need God. And that's why all of us need God. Don't we?

I was also impacted by what Joyce Meyer spoke last Sunday. She taught us that we should treat others good as they are the very ones Jesus died for. Bam, it pierced through my heart... Not that I was mean, but now I'm more conscious... (And Alice please don't keep quoting this from me haha)

Talking about quotes, I had a free morning again, so I went to 'explore' my boss' room. Not sneakily ok!!! I have free access! And so I drew out a book from his 'library' (a short row of books) and read it. It was a book full of quotes... So having nothing to do, I wrote out some quotes I thought were worth writing as well as some vocab... It's a good habit to write down words we don't know and check the meaning for them... And so I came across a quote which I don't quite understand and need your help. It was weird, at first I understood, and then the more I thought it over, the more confused I got.

Didn't bring the notebook back haha so stay tuned for the mysterious quote. Hahaha.. -_-

I don't know what season is this now... There seems to be an influx of irritating bugs in my life...
Maybe I need more patience? Argh. Like what Joyce Meyer said earlier, miserable people should stay in bed and not come out and make others miserable too... AMEN. (I say, they should not only stay in bed, but should stay in bed and sleep as well)

Anyway, hehe.. Taught Alice a little bit of piano today... It was such a happy thing to do! =) I really loved it and glad that she enjoyed it too.. It was encouraging... Hehehe... Her reason for learning is quite cute haha... In any case I'll teach whoever is genuinely willing to learn.. It was quite sad to hear of someone who obtained a Grade 8 and not like playing the piano... It was for the sake of his mum... -_-

Gotta do everything with passion!!! If not, don't do it at all.

Yet to find a good piano teacher for myself... The earlier one lives in Punggol. Man.. I can't wait!!! I told myself that I should start this month... Boo.

Hmm..... Sometimes I think that some people I met are angels in disguise... Well, angels do come in human form too right. I really think so...

3 such persons are etched in my mind:
1) A stranger in the train

I was reading my bio notes and I forgot how, this old man beside me started chatting with me... He was a jovial person and so it was a pleasure talking to him. He was learning the Spanish language on a book and he told me he travelled a lot... Hmm... And he asked briefly about the notes I was reading, it was about photosynthesis. -_- Hmm... His words were so edifying, something I needed at that point of time as I was preparing for A level... He sounded so convicted that my future was going to be great... I felt that he was a special stranger and it was a pity he alighted at City Hall shortly after we chatted. (I remember unimportant things like that)

2) A distant Usher friend

I was 15 and was at the lowest point of my life... One day, while crying in my toilet, my hp rang. Silly enough, I picked up. -_- (When I think back now, I thought that was quite a courageous act...) So then I tried to be strong and hide my quavering voice. But apparently, I succeeded only for a few seconds, maybe just long enough to say a 'Hallo." and I broke down again.. Goodness, think I must have freaked that person out.. Hahahaha... Anyway, she talked to me and stuff and we ended with a prayer. And that was what I needed most at that time. Hmm... I guess it was more than a coincidence.

3) An 'annual' friend

(Hope he doesn't see this HAHA) Well, he's someone whom I talk to only when we bump into each other in church... And that's like once or twice a year? Haha... Hmm, well, I happened to see him last sunday before service started and went up to him for a chat. It was very nice talking to him (as always).. Told him briefly about my life and stuff.. And what he said really touched me to the extent that I had to blink to drain back 1 or 2 drops of tears before he saw it. Haha... Man... Guess it's true what Cai and my dad said about me.. I'm soft on the inside... Eh at least I made an effort not to show it. Haha.. So hmmm, that was spiritually refreshing...

Cool huh. See, God knows our needs and He understands. So when people you are unfamiliar with start speaking the right things at the right time into your life, then you know that there is something more behind it. =) Maybe I think too much? Haha I don't know...

It was a mad day.

1) Taxi driver

Woke up late today as I forgot to adjust my clock and it was raining sweetly, so I took a cab. As if my morning hadn't been bad enough, the driver had to make it worse.. Upon arriving, I handed her a $50 note and she told me she didn't have change. ...... -_- ......

Driver : Can you walk over to the coffeeshop (opposite) to change money?
Me: *fuming under my breath* (It was raining) Why don't you go over?
Driver : I can't leave my car.
Me: It is raining.
Driver : *blablablabla like it was my fault* Ok, I'll drive you over to the other one.
Me: -_- I thought it's expected that.... (I stopped abruptly as I realised it was stupid to argue)

So I had to walk under the rain again (no diff really) to do her job of getting smaller notes.. and still had to tolerate her frustration of having to drive another round.. (like I like being trapped in a car with her..?)

?!?!?!?!
It was ridiculous. Totally la...

So anyway, one happy thing, my boss went to play golf today! So it was quite nice.

2) Lunch

I had lunch with a group of Chinese (ppl from China). That was an amazing feat... A breakthrough.. Waha.. And I actually enjoyed it. LOL..

3) Fireworks

Met Alice to watch fireworks together! Hmm.. It was one of those wish-you-were-there moments... It was real spectacular and nothing compared to the one we all saw during NDP.. It literally pales in comparison. Haha.. And Alice is a stalker. She stalks on cute children hahaha..

Anyway I received a sms ytd... It goes like this...
"Tomorrow nite got fireworks. You want to come and watch? I got a secret place. No crowd. Clear View."
HAHA!! It sounds kinky huh. You wouldn't have guessed it. It was from my FATHER! HAHAHA.. He has a cute way of talking sometimes..

4) A strange stranger

On our way home, a stranger came up to us and asked for directions. Hmm, that initial conversation led to an 1-hour monologue from government to foreign workers to education... It came to a point where we were so exhausted hearing that stranger's rants and grumbles. She looked like she was in her 30s and well I guess she's been bottling up a lot and when there was finally an outlet (us) she just went on and on and on like a pressured champagne being released. Well, I did listen and sympathized with her.. What she said set me thinking.. About something else..

I told Alice I felt pampered... Pampered by God. We all live in the same world, all have our own mountains to climb, weird people to tolerate and toot to go through... But I have a Friend who sticks with me, a Comforter when I'm down, a Provider who gives me more than I need, and Someone who always gives me a reason to smile. Truly, what more can I ask?

5) My brother

In case you don't know, I have a younger brother. He walked past me in the train! And it took me a second to realise it was him... I stared at him as he passed by and actually smiled! He was looking good! Like the typical beach boys at Sentosa... Hmm... He's... Unpredictable... Sometimes he irritates me and sometimes he talks in a tone that, as a big sis, will melt my heart for a while. Like "wow, he's actually nice.." Haha! I'm mean. =P Think I should do something more for him.. Hmm..... =)

Very excited about tmr! Hehehe..

Job's way too fine... I even brought my music theory to do. After talking to Leon I felt challenged to take grade 5 theory next yr so gotta refresh a bit of grade3 stuff.. Anyway, this is my first time working with relatively many men (sounds weird..) and I'd rather work with men than 20+-yr-old women cos I can't stand some of their bitchiness... Most men are fuss-free, they do their own stuff and I do mine.. peace V! And it was also nice working with 30+ matured women.. Like they have seen things and know better what to do..

My boss is a 60+ men and so he tends to be long-winded and stuff... I really gotta suppress myself from interrupting him.. But it's fine... He's still strong and looking good for his age. Ha... And the best deal, he's only in the office 2-3 hours every day. So if you are free and wanna entertain me, please do! Haha. Befriended a Chinese (as in someone from China) and so I have to speak in Mandarin. Erm so.. that's by far the most challenging thing I had to do at work. Heard that my boss plays golf every friday.. Hope so! =)

And eh... It seems like everyone's attached now?! (Btw my dad doesn't like the term 'attached' being used for r/s.. maybe it's too strong a word for him haha) My colleague made it such a big deal to have a bf... -_- Don't understand really... Like "Huh so?"...

Some things I don't understand...
Why pretty girls are often the insecure ones...
and
Why rich men are often erm.. not that good-looking...

Haha anyway, few days ago on my way home, I was surprised this song came into my mind...
Surprised because it was one I heard when I was little and when it suddenly popped out, it was like flipping through an untouched diary..
Part of it goes like this..

I could gain the world and all its treasures
But nothing in this world can satisfy me

It is Your love
It is Your goodness
It is Your presence in my life
That satisfy...

Isn't it beautiful.. Simple and to the point... Heard that Corrinne May had a concert today.. Love her songs! Though generally her songs sound similar but her lyrics are really good. They sound real... and 'rawly' out of the heart...

Oh and on my way to work in the morning, I tuned in to Symphony 92.4 just in time to hear Andrew Lloyd Webber's "Music of the Night".. At that moment, my heart fluttered for a moment... You know the kind of feeling when you see your crush, just that it wasn't a nervous feeling, just a very happy one... I would have smiled if I wasn't in the train haha..

Woah. So many changes took place within such a short period of time...


1) I am officially out of choir.

It was an easy choice, but a hard decision. (Wah sounds profile huh. hahaha) Easy choice as I will choose to be in the orchestra rather than the choir as that was what I saw myself in perhaps 5 or 6 years ago? I always thought it's so 'cool' so be in the symphony orchestra and now that I am in, I wouldn't bear to leave. Of course the choir meant a lot to me too.. hence, it was also a hard decision to make a stand and tell myself to leave. But I had to......


Have been in the choir for 3 years or so, and I never once had to drag my feet up on stage to sing. It's been my greatest honour to be serving God in this manner... To share the view of speakers and musicians on stage... To lead the congregation in praise and worship... To usher down the presence of God... and to sing in harmony together with fellow choir members. It's been my pure joy and pleasure no doubt.
















Choir platform...

















Choir mike (those tiny dots below are the people)




















Soundcheck before service




















Shortly before service


Hey... I'm sentimental k... Hahaha. On saturday (2nd last time in choir) I actually tried hard to fight back my tears while on stage.. But unfortunately, I failed even during the first praise song. I wished it never ended though. Ok enough of emo stuff..


2) I am officially a secretary.


Today was my first day. It was boring in the morning and nowhere near sleazy as what my friend presumed -_- hahahaha.. The office is normally empty in the morning as the agents are 'out there' doing their stuff.. So it's good, I can read my nerdy book. One happy news though, I heard that my pay is a few hundred more than the previous lady wooo... Think I'm overpaid for the things I am doing.. LOL.. But who knows, it's just Day 1. My boss is a District Manager with 2 mangers under him (His son is one of them) and we had a meeting in the afternoon where they talked about growth rate and stuff.. and announced the top agents in the company... They are freaks I tell you. They can easily earn $1M/year... Well, it's good to be surrounded by rich people hahaha...


3) I have another side job


A friend cum colleague asked if I wanna help him call up people for just 2 hours every week and he's paying not bad. So will be speaking to people ranging from an accountant to a lawyer... May I sound professional! HAHAHAHA... And if those people agree to close a deal, I have comission too. May people not slam down the phone!


4) I am unofficially a piano teacher


HAHAHA.. So excited! Alice wants me to teach her piano!!! It's certainly my pleasure! =) So it will be on saturday before cg starts hehehe.. May she like it!! =)


And I'm still a tuition teacher too.. Wah am I on a working marathon or sth?? HAHAHA... Of course I will still and must set aside time for myself and for God. That's very important for me...


Yup, so enjoy what you are doing and things will be easier. =)


*Make my heart Your home*

It's back to a normal day today. LOL. Gave tuition in the afternoon and man... spoonerism was rampant after all those stuff last night.. LOL.. So my kids and I had a good laugh. Had cello lesson after tuition, it was quite enjoyable. =) But man... still have a looong way... I always encourage myself but quoting this from a great pianist, "You can't hurry in music." Hahaha.. Then I will feel better...

Anyway, I got a call from the AIA guy at noon... And he congratulated me for getting the job. As I just woke up, I thought I didn't sound excited enough hahahaha...

Erm, by the way, what does AIA stands for? HAHAHA...

God is truly my Provider! No doubt about that... He works in ways we cannot see. So who knows, a nobody (aileen) will soon be a sombody. Amen~~~ Happiness is..... Knowing that God is on your side and that we are more than conquerors.

Yesterday was madness I think. Haha. Met Wendy to watch NDP at the Padang! It was truly a great experience watching it with fellow Singaporeans under a cloudy sky in the midst of skyscraper.











The largest umbrella flag thingy















our 10 o'clock










our 6 o'clock










Patriotic Wendy, LOL this makes a nice propaganda picture!













They gave us this starwars stick haha. That's the court behind me and look at the sky! The sun was setting..











And no.. Those were not birds!










Nice setting!










Reminded me of 911 hahaha..

Haha next to went to PS to watch '881' HAHA. Support local films!!! Thank God I understand dialect cause approximately 80% of the show is in dialect. Quite funny.. Lol.. Will give it 7.5/10

And then we proceeded to MOS. Finally broken my record...










At 12:23am











Dancing people














Volka lime. Eww. I don't like anything alcohol but I finished it anyway.. And ended up getting Evian later. HAHAHAHA... Loser right? LOL..

Anyway there was one funny incident. Wendy and I were dancing on the rotating platform and suddenly a guy beside me asked if he and his friend can dance together with us. I was very puzzled. Totally.. Like how 'together' did he want? Hahaha -_- Anyway I found out that he was younger and very much like the jc boys u see around town.. (Talking abt jc, I'm so disconnected now. No more uniforms, morning assemblies and PEs forever... And I haven't collected my A level cert. =P)

Left the place at ard 330. 3 hours of madness there hahahaha.. I was totally KO-ed by then.. It was a good experience I would say, had a great cardio workout. Waha.. But it's not my kind of place to hang out at, probably won't ever go again even. I actually felt homesick for ard 5 seconds over there hahaha.. I'm a homely person k.. lol..

Weird, I woke up at 9.30am today. Met Yeekiat at East Coast to rollerblade... Weather was really cheerful and sunny.. (But unfortunately I'm still white... Cai's getting disgusted already haha) There were troops of army boys/men doing their runs (nice bods!) and many noisy red secondary school kids around.. It was a fun day but I am mentally exhausted now...

Reason being...

Today marks my last day of choir prac. SAD. It was a nice memorable last prac for me, which made me feel worse. We learnt a new song "God of My Forever" and sang in a cappella for another song.. It was fun cos I managed to catch my part! I am most comfortable singing low low parts.. Anyway hmm... Glad Lili was with me at the prac, I like her a lot... Stood beside her while singing Christmas carols at Vivo and during Benny Hinn crusade so she's a special friend in choir.. Hmm.. She waited for me after prac as my IC wanted to talk to me.. I felt quite touched.. Kk thou shall not be emo. Anyway.. Hmm.. I'm speechless now.. Experiencing mental block once again..

So.. Yea..

What a day!!!


Received a random call from Reid in the morning and he wanted me to help out in a game which comprised of some Japanese kids and boys from St Gabriel's. So I agreed since I have nothing on at night.. LOL it was great fun! The kids were so adorable hahaha.. So we went around places to eat stuff lol, the Japs were quite particular about food though. They didn't like beancurd and you tiao?! LOL.. But they loved Paus hahaha..















My group.. We went to that famous store in Geylang and man... We couldn't find our way!! For some reasons, I forgot it is a red-light district and gullibly asked a prostitute for directions. She glared at me! It was funny though lol..
















That V. Japs are cute la. No denying. Haha..












The group leaders with some Jap girls. V V V V V lol..












pei min V reid V aileen

I like this pic a lot!!! The thing which he was holding is an English-Japanese translator. So cool right.. We had a steamboat buffet after the game. Reid treated me la cos I only had REN MING BI with me.. -_- and there wasn't any money changer around.. Me and the weird things I have..

Oh and I met Nessi (sec sch clique) in the train!!! We haven't seen each other for yearsss but we still clicked super well LOL.. I like her a lot cos she will laugh with me. LOL.. Not just 'Haha.' but 'HAHAHAHAHAHA' lol.. Good. I need more friends like that so I wouldn't appear that silly. =P

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Received a call from Wendy (choir friend) too! She asked if I'm free on National Day.. I was like "Oh when is that?" LOL.. Can someone wake me up.. LOL.. Anyway, I hadn't had any plans so she came up with a brilliant plan for us. That is to watch the live telecast at Padang then a movie and then MOS!!! (Talking about MOS, it reminded me of a fateful day when I ordered Teriyaki Burger at Mos Burger only to be told they ran out of buns. -_-) Clubbing!! I'm not sure if I will
like it though, haven't been to one. Hope that it's not too crowded! Haha.. Excitement!

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Went for an interview in the afternoon at AIA for the position of a Secretary. (Don't laugh =P) Anyway I thank God that it went well! I knew I wasn't being myself then..

Cos there was
NO SPOONERISM
NO STUTTERING
NO MENTAL BLOCK

It couldn't be me really hahaha..
The interviewer made 3 comments that I am
- suitable
- a good communicator (Bird don't laugh LOL..)
- pleasant

So I guess there is 80% I can get it..
The other 20% I can't..
10% - Can't work for long
10% - I made a stupid-sounding happy sound at the end of the interview. !!!!!!!!! That was a BIG sin.

Sigh I hope he will overlook that........

I will not make funny noise again.
I will not make funny noise again.
I will not make funny noise again.


Phew what a day~

Oh, it was Festival of Praise last weekend! Hehehe, 123 churches gathered at the SIS and we were united as one. It was a joy praying, praising and worshiping God together. =)!! A pure joy. We had Delirious? and Don Moen! I thought Don Moen looked quite cute for his age haha, especially his smile!

Don Moen

God's presence was really strong as well,

had a great time soaking up the atmosphere.

Full house! =)

Cai and I hehehe.. That V has a story behind hahaha..

Ok ok lunch time!!

Had Cello lesson today... and I had to sing. SING! Well, I used to love singing a lot a lot.. Until I have this nasal conjestion thingy. It's irritating and so I stopped singing for fun. Anyway I had to sing in semitone! Something which I am real bad in. I was told I need to improve in my pitching and tone... See, when you play the piano you are not mindful of how each note sounds like cause you simply just have to press that key!!!!!!!!!! Sigh..

I always get into the emo mood after lesson....... Cause it's a time where your errors are 'boldly showcased'? And negative thoughts will start flooding my mind... It surely is a mental torture I tell you... So after lesson, I went to the National Library to emo a little and then went home... Feeling emo all the way. A guy who was walking in the opposite direction suddenly talked to me. I had my earphones on so I couldn't figure out what he said, I just looked at him in a daze and walked off nonchalantly. But I heard something like "big guitar"... A lot of people have mistaken my cello for a guitar when i carry it!!! A LOT... Wait till they carry it..

Anyway, look at the last piece of paper in a book. My mind was as blank as that the whole day!!! Sometimes I really don't know what's going on inside of me... See, when my mind is blank, it's damn irritating. I will suddenly speak like I don't know grammar or sentence synthesis. It's worse than my most powerful and infamous spoonerism. And I hate it when that happens. To begin with, I don't have much to say sometimes. So when my mind is blank, it becomes a tragedy. It's then the best time to play piano and emo together...

Look like I have nothing intelligent to say recently... I miss GP. =(

A great bunch of unassuming Choir BOYS
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FKpP8gTblSM
Heavenly music~ My heart smiled while listening...

Julian Lloyd Webber the cellist, brother of Andrew Lloyd Webber.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ljII_bRQQk&mode=related&search=
Perfect.

Somehow sometimes, simple and slow songs are the hardest to play... Because each note has to be expressed clearly and 100% in tune. I'm amazed by how cellists (except me) can hit the same spot on a fretless fingerboard so accurately where even 1mm difference will produce a different sound.. Guess it takes a hell lot of practices..

Now my only wish is to play better today than yesterday. Can't afford to play anything worse.. Goodness... I guess my 'grace' period is gonna be due soon.. Hahaha.. People are gonna expect more from me.... Have to keep confessing God's word now... Haha..

For some weird reasons I can't put up Youtube videos here.

Anyway, check this out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uzenVzL_yoc

I didn't know they have accompliment for this song but I thought it was too overwhemling..

My beloveds. The piano score is by Yiruma - I, still mad about it... After being inspired by Yang lol... Feel like going Esplanade again!! YANG!!!! lol...

The silly amatuer cellist

Oh check this out too. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f9E6TFb6QRk&mode=related&search=

Too intimidated by the score to try... and Yiruma's songs need us to be in the emo mood to play hahaha.. I hope I can perform like him ONE DAY...

SIGH..................................

Anyway, I'm currently reading this book - my birthday gift LAST YEAR lol..

Nice fictional bedtime story.. And since I have the luxury of time now, I've spent every night reading until the words turned into mere alphabets sitting side by side.. And you may wannt to find out more about the author, she is rather interesting..

Had orchestra prac just now... The rest of the cellists pang seh-ed me!!!! I was the only one again... And this time we ran through "Pomp and Circumstance", a nightmarish song for the strings!!! Check it out at YouTube if you want. Goodness gracious, I somehow managed to barely survive. I thought I played real bad, but another commented that I have improved! So I was happy. (You can roughly know how bad I was previously.)

Ya I was BAD. Now better... But not good yet...

It's really all in your mind... I feel good each time I conquer every negative thought. Playing music takes more than just skills and techniques, it's a constant battle up in your mind... Well, at least for me. Frankly speaking, when I first joined the orchestra, I was 'tekaned' so many times... It was quite devastating. Once I was on the verge of breaking down during one of the practices... And sometimes I felt like giving up... But I kept telling myself to give my best now that I am in it...

Of course the first steps are the hardest. I avoided Charles for quite some time due to phobia... It's hard to believe how someone can be afraid of a non-living thing right. But ya, I didn't touch it. Looking at it made me damn sad. Ok thou shall not be emo~ Anyway, I conquered my fear!!! I played note by note with my piano cos I don't have a tuner and cello doesn't have frets. Practise practise practise... And ta da! I'm loving Charles more now...

So positive reinforcement works wonders. We wouldn't know when just one more practice will cause us to hit our threshold. (Don't know if it makes sense haha)

Ok anyway, if anyone has CPF of more than S$5000.00 and is interested to invest in it, please contact me. Collabrating with my Dad. =)

Ah, went for an interview at 10AM. My goodness, I somehow managed to wake up before the alarm went off. Oh in case you are wondering, I applied for a CHILDCARE teacher's position. Hard to believe I know, I don't like rowdy kids and I can't stand screams and shouts... THEN WHY?! HAHA.. Am I out of my mind?! Yes. LOL.. Maybe I just like teaching...

So then when I reached the childcare, I wasn't exactly excited by what I saw - a teacher trying to 'catch' a running kid.. Eww I thought. Wasn't nervous too as I wasn't too hard up for the job.. And when the interviewer revealed the salary well, I was so tempted to stand up and walk away hahahahaha.. It's pathetic considering the working hours.

Anyway, I met Idy (my ex choir ic) on my way back in the bus, so we talked. She's a very pleasant lady... Don't really know her but for some reasons I always look up to her. Maybe it's her fighting spirit, not starkly displayed but somehow I know she's a strong lady. =)

Met Louisa on the train recently as well, and she introduced a piano teacher for me. It's hard to find a good piano teacher amidst a pool of them... And she was quite 'enthu' about the teacher so I know it can't be that bad.. Haha it's nice to bump into nice people out of the blue, somehow it adds a sparkle to my day.. =)

During the conversation with Jeff a couple of days back, I was actually quite taken aback, erm.. maybe surprised, that he actually (seriously) wanted me to find a BOYFRIEND after I proudly declared that I didn't have anyone in mind. It brings me back to a fateful night when I dreamt that he had a girlfriend and casually smsed him the next morning about it. True enough, he was just attached and lo and behold he is getting married next year. HAHA he can't hide anything from me! LOL! Kidding.

Talking about dreams, I have a few weird dreams recently. I dreamt about my 'dream' house (literally) again! For the 3rd time already... It has a huge open balcony and best of all, my bedroom has a transparent ceiling which I can look up to the sky!!!!! Sky!! And that the uppermost floor is vacant, due to excess space hahaha.. May my dream come true. Lol..

Oh I just received an sms, "Aileen I want to date you out!!" HAHAHAHAAHAHA. I love frank people. But I still can't bring myself to say what Bird blurted out yesterday. TS level: 10. LOL.. Ok I'm getting cranky, gotta get a job soon man. LOL..

An Eccentric Day. (See, whoever puts the title at the back?!)

Man.. I feel sick!! Just inhaled a breathful of BAYGONE while spraying a multitude of Drosophilae (Simply, Fruitflies. =P) LOL.. Some of the crazy things I do..

Anyway, had a talk with Jeff last night. It's sure tough to be an 'adult'. You gotta think of your career.. Marriage.. Family and stuff... We have one thing in common - We both have cute fathers!!!! HAHAHA.. They both crack lame jokes and thought we are laughing at the jokes but are actually laughing at them. LOL.. Anyway I mentioned about Beloved Birdy and he was trying so hard to picture her face hahaha..

Me and Bird really can flow!!! To an extent that it's quite scary at times hahaha.. We spent our Sunday night nua-ing around Orchard and being cheapskate and thick-skinned all at once. LOL.. Love your company Bird! We witnessed something spectacular too!!! A bright, round moon surrounded by a ring of rainbow!!!!!!!! We were awe-strucked and stood in the middle of a street just staring at it.

For some reasons, I am really attracted to the sky. Haha..

There are a thousand reasons why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

- "Everything in Its Time" by Corrinne May

Had orchestra prac ytd and while fiddling with my cello before it started, Eric came up to me and commented that I have improved! I smiled, but in my heart I was jumping 10-story high. It's little encouragement like that that spurs us on... to practise even harder...

LOL it's really hard not to fall in love with Charles... Ytd was quite a cello marathon LOL.. Cos I had cello lesson before prac too.. Oh man.. I'm obsessed already..

LOL.. and the day before, I had an eating marathon!!!! Goodness I thought it only happens in HK... It was Weiying's farewell as she'll be flying back Aust again.. So firstly we had a Jap buffet and then a 2-hr interval, followed by Cafe Iguana and then Brewerkz. LOL.. I felt fat immediately. LOL..

I don't know, I'm so easily cracked up recently LOL...

"There is no shame in losing to a superior opponent. The only shame is if you don't prepare to do your very best."


Cool, it made my hair stand reading it.

One kind of people that amazes me - talkative people.
Serious. I don't know how they can go on and on and on... and on. without stopping. It seems like they have only commas in their sentences. I am really amazed cos sometimes, I have nothing much to say... and sometimes I don't bother making small talks... It's quite boring I think. But not as much as senseless blabbering.

One nerdy fact - I miss GP lessons with Sally.
GP rocks... LOL.. Totally. I love how Sally discussed various affairs of the world with us. LOL. She always talked with such conviction and confidence LOL.. and it was interesting hearing her discussed with herself. LOL.. The best part is there is no right or wrong answer. But the worst part was GP homework.

On why I didn't do her work..

Me: I don't think it benefits me and I find no point in doing...
Sally: *blabber & grumble*

Man.. I can be too honest sometimes.. LOL.. I love frank people. Some of the most frank people I know are - my dad, cai jun, meng ching and jeff. LOL.. No concealing, no sugar-coating. Straight to the point, straight from the heart. Ok ok and I will try to be more tactful though!!!!! Lol..

I wish I can live alone...

Just me..
My piano..
My cello..
& my com..

Hmm.. another alternative would be to shift those stuff into my room.. Soundproof my room.. ($40,000) And I shall live happily ever after... The end.

It sucks totally to not being able to play your stuff in serenity.. To have someone BLASTING the tv while playing.. To have someone putting hot cups on your piano leaving nasty stains... @*$#^@!%)Q#&
I hate it when people mistreat my piano.. Totally.. It's just plain crude and cruel.. Sigh.... ='''(
In fact my heart has broken countless times over my piano when it's being mistreated.. Emo? Well, I guess it's hard to fathom..

2 of the weirdest people around are nerds and musicians.

It's good to do random things and meet random people out sometimes...

I finally met Junyang from JJ just now.. at 10.30 PM.. PM!! Reason being, it was quite hard to fix a day with him as he is in the army and my schedule is unpredictable.. So after I had confirmed with him, my cello teacher invited me to his concert on thurs and thus I had to shift my tuition to friday hahaha.. thus had to meet him that late.. Ok enough of the boring stuff..

We watched a random movie as there wasn't any nice ones currently.. He chose "Vacancy" which he thought was the nicest..

"But it's quite scary.."
"Bring it on! hahaha" (hao lian right lol)

-_- Never did I know that I'd be squirming throughout the show with my eyes shielded for some parts (waste money right LOL) and breath held. The suspense level was 8.5/10. LOL.. I thought it was quite thrilling. But it was a low-budget production with a bad ending.

I still find it amusing for 2 aquaintances to meet tonight LOL.. It's like we barely knew each other in school and I remember only smiling to him once in school.. SCHOOL?!?! Goodness, I feel so disconnected from JJ.. Distant memories replaying on a dusty tape.. We past by JJ on the way home and we looked on in silence.. Though I often pass by JJ but it felt different with another JJcian beside u.. Ok thou shall not be emo. LOL~

Yang's having piano withdrawal haha.. HANG ON!! lol.. Piano can get really addictive. Since Monday I have been spending hours on the piano everyday.. Free entertainment. =)

Went to watch the SNYO's concert earlier on, I was quite captivated and throughout the whole performance my heart was thumping rather quickly.. I told Jem I felt nervous for my teacher lol.. but I guess there was sth more I donno.. Anyway I thought he was awesome and I thought the cellos sounded the best. =) And any guy would look a million bucks with suit and a bow tie playing an instrument. Any guy. =) Especially cellists.. Lol.. *grinning in my heart* It's such a beautiful instrument.. Ok i'm getting a tard biased here lol..

Aileen. William. Jeremy.
We wanted to capture the upper part of the building, but I guess the cameraman thought that the plants were more interesting... LOL..

Inside Victoria Concert Hall during interval

There were 2 girls sitting behind us and they were displaying poor audience etiquette. Totally. Criticise criticise criticise... It was quite irritating after a while.. If we were that good, we won't be sitting below.. So if anyone is on stage doing their stuff the best they know how, as audience we can do our part too by giving our best attention and support.

Anyway, the choir and the orchestra will be performing in 2 or 3 weeks' time! I'm quite sure it'd be a new breakthrough for CHC. So stay tuned! =P *my classic pun lol*

LOL... It's such a fun day!!!! Went with Yang to play piano at the Esplanade!!! The practice room is the friendliest piano room ever, (typical rooms are cold and walled up) it overlooks the city skyscape and Marina Bay.. Breathtaking view which gave playing a new experience.. It's located in a corner of the Esplanade library and it's not sound-proof!!! To my delight, I saw an uncle sleeping blissfully on a couch outside.. LOL..

Yang is a fantastic pianist! Yiruma-fanatic lol.. So inspired by him... Still a loooong way to go for me.. We tried to play some duet pieces but well... LOL.. it got quite messy with 20 fingers on a keyboard.. LOL.. And I think I make a bad partner LOL... PRACTISE!!!!!!!

After that I went for cello lesson.. It's quite physically demanding carry Charles around... Yang should know.. LOL... Anyway, my teacher is performing this Thursday at Victoria Concert Hall with the Singapore Youth Orchestra. Tickets at $5, get it from Sistic. =) *promote promote*

"Master, take my hand, take me to where I am not meant to be."

I was puzzled.

Why would those words come out of my mouth..?
And it sounded ridiculous, doesn't it?
Why would I want to be at somewhere I am not meant to be?

Ah, then I understood...
=)
I'm going to a place where, by my own ability, I am unable to.
How refreshing!

*Buckle my seatbelt!*

I love today! Spent my entire day playing music.. lol.. Made myself play this song that I've shoved aside for so long (too lazy to try) I don't even remember I have it.. It is a song by Yiruma (A Korean pianist) titled "First Love".. I must admit I teared a little while playing.. And had goosebumps.. Goodness this is the power of music... Something that will never ever bore me even till my dying days...

Anyway, I'm currently reading a book titled "Great Pianists Speak" and in it was quoted "A musician is a person who, first of all, has an open mind about everything in connection with music. He is a person who is willing to listen to anything; a person who is willing to study and consider all angles and approaches to music, open to all ideas and sufficiently learned to make a choice as to what he wants to do and the road that he wants to follow."

In my opinion, I feel that the word "musician" is used too loosely now. People seem to love to be known as a musician.. You think so? I feel that to have the title of a "musician", it takes more than just being able to sing, play some notes or being part of a band or an orchestra.. With that title, it comes a hell lot of commitment, sacrifices, failures, heartaches, discipline, crazy persistence, diligence and you-name-it. Now, how many musicians are left?

Had a conversation with Leon during prac just now... He pointed out that some classical players think that pop/rock music are bad music.. *roll eyes* (please refer to the above definition of a musician) I feel that all forms of music express emotions that another genre can't express as clearly. Like do you hear bars and clubs playing classicals?!?!?! So it leads me to think that music sounds the nicest when it is appropriate and relevant to the present situation and when it is appreciated.. Like we sometimes like it loud and 'noisy' and sometimes a little mellow.. Therefore we really shouldn't depise another form of music.. (I suddenly thought of chinese orchestra haha nvm..) It all boils down to different perferences I think..

Open for discussions. (Please discuss with me!!! Hahaha..)

Time flies. It's July.

When people start coming up to you and broach about getting a bf and stuff..
When you find yourself seriously thinking about your career and future..
When your parents become less mindful of giving you allowance..
When you start meeting friends just to 'catch-up'..
When messages such as "If we have 70 years to live, we only have 48 years awake." raise your eyebrows and make your hair stand..

You know that you are not as young as you think you are anymore.

When everything is stripped away, your friends, family, pride, fears...
And you are left with a naked bare heart,
What would you do?
Who do you want to become?

Life is short. And I don't like it when people want me to become what I'm not called to become.. Don't we all have our own dreams? Mine may be different from yours... But it doesn't make it inferior just because yours is more 'socially accepted'..

I really like last week's sermon about the 7 mountains.. Isn't it so true?? Take note that he drew all mountains with the same height. Meaning all are equally important. Cultural mandate. We all have our own different roles to play and I can't play your role as good as you can and vice versa.

Btw, I have a really cool dad!!! hahahaha.. random..

What do you call a group of...?

A group of unicorns is called a blessing.
A group of kangaroos is called a mob.
A group of whales is called a pod.
A group of geese is called a gaggle.
A group of owls is called a parliament.
A group of ravens is an unkindness.
A group of crows is a murder.
A group of bears is called a sleuth.
Twelve or more cows is called a flink.

-Arcamax Trivia

I receive 6 questions daily.. They keep me entertained. I'm barely into my first non-working week and I'm already feeling bored!!!!!!!! Totally can't wait to finish university and engage the marketplace once again... The busyness.. The people.. The satisfaction.. The challenges.. Neat.

*Your word is a light unto my path*

I've lost faith in Singapore DOCTORS. If they can't even cure a tendon tear, I donno how to trust them with anything more severe...

I went to SGH on the 22/5/2007 for my tendon tear treatment..
Doctor was smart enough to identify it as a tendon tear and he promised that it would recover in 3 days. (It's been more than 33 days......) Having known the half-hearted way Sg doctors treat their patients, I had to double confirm.
"Healed BY ITSELF??"
"Ya."
"In THREE days?"
"Ya."
"So I DON'T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING?"
"Ya just rest and take the PAINKILLERS which I will prescribe."
(Eh doctor, painkillers are so superficial.. I don't wish to see u again u know..)
"Oh so it will heal COMPLETELY like before?"
"Ya."

*$80 bucks gone*

I remember very clearly that I asked those questions becos I was real doubtful of him and the way he approached my injury. See, I'm right. Just went to see a Sinseh in the morning.. (But she wasn't strong enough.. I felt that she was merely tickling me throughout the session.. Tried real hard to minimise my sniffle LOL) and perhaps Friday I'll go again to see THE BEST SINSEH IN SG. *promote promote* He's located at People's Park, reknown in Singapore among the Sinsehs. First-come-first-serve basis, and the queue-time takes appro. half of your day. And I'm not very pleased to say that HE KNOWS ME already.. Sigh...

Some tips prior to visiting a doctor
1) DO YOUR RESEARCH.
If you already know what you are suffering from, check the internet. Most of the time doctors say things that we can find out by ourselves. Moreover the internet provides more useful and detailed infomation. So if unnecessary, don't waste time and money on nothing.

2) PREPARE A LIST OF QUESTIONS
Make full use of your consultation, it ain't cheap. Grill the doctors, make them do their job. Best still, prepare some questions with ANSWERS to test the doctors and to sound knowledgeable. Just to confirm that they know their stuff and to feel secure in their hands.. Make it a learning session too.

3) KEEP YOUR MIND CLEAR OF EVERYTHING ELSE
The sessions may sometimes be useless but out of it, the doctor may say something that is worthy to be noted. So, nevertheless, concentrate fully for that 15 minutes. (or more if you have more enquiries) Prepare your heart also to hear undesirable news.

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Perhaps money is the main driving factor in many professions (Be practical right?). But I feel if anyone wants to have a 'glam' job, then for goodness' sake, live up to the name. They really don't need to work overtime, just work their best in those regular working hours.. Most of the time people would gladly and willingly pay a little more if they feel that what they received is worth the money they are paying for. And one of the reasons people complain is perhaps because they feel shortchanged.

Well, just a little piece of my mind, don't really like to write a conclusion haha.. May be lopsided and absolute in some points..
Open for discussions and rebuttals.

Man.. It sure does feel good not working on a monday! Went for cello lesson in the afternoon.. Love it!!! I'm loving my cello more and more hahaha..

Teacher: You should name your cello..
Me: Haha.. A guy's name? (duh.. lol..)
Teacher: Haha ya so that your husband will be jealous.. lol..

Come to think of it.. It's quite true haha! We are constantly in physical contact.. Hugging and stuff.. LOL... I like the name 'charles' so Charles it shall be. =) Cello.. Charles.. Ah nice..